Archive for September 2011

'Ugly the Cat'

Everyone in the apartment complex I lived in knew who Ugly was.  Ugly was the resident tomcat.  Ugly loved three things in this world: fighting, eating garbage, and shall we say, love.

The combination of these things combined with a life spent outside had their effect on Ugly.

To start with, he had only one eye, and where the other should have been was a gaping hole.  He was also missing his ear on the same side, his left foot has appeared to have been badly broken at one time, and had healed at an unnatural angle, making him look like he was always turning the corner.

His tail has long since been lost, leaving only the smallest stub, which he would constantly jerk and twitch.  Ugly would have been a dark gray tabby striped-type, except for the sores covering his head, neck, even his shoulders with thick, yellowing scabs.  Every time someone saw Ugly there was the same reaction. "That's one UGLY cat!!"


All the children were warned not to touch him, the adults threw rocks at him, hosed him down, squirted him when he tried to come in their homes, or shut his paws in the door when he would not leave.  Ugly always had the same reaction.  If you turned the hose on him, he would stand there, getting soaked until you gave up and quit.  If you threw things at him, he would curl his lanky body around feet in forgiveness.  Whenever he spied children, he would come running meowing frantically and bump his head against their hands, begging for their love.  If you ever picked him up he would immediately begin suckling on your shirt, earrings, whatever he could find.

One day Ugly shared his love with the neighbors huskies.  They did not respond kindly, and Ugly was badly mauled.  From my apartment I could hear his screams, and I tried to rush to his aid.  By the time I got to where he was laying, it was apparent Ugly's sad life was almost at an end.

Ugly lay in a wet circle, his back legs and lower back twisted grossly out of shape, a gaping tear in the white strip of fur that ran down his front.  As I picked him up and tried to carry him home I could hear him wheezing and gasping, and could feel him struggling.  I must be hurting him terribly I thought.  Then I felt a familiar tugging, sucking sensation on my ear- Ugly, in so much pain, suffering and obviously dying was trying to suckle my ear.  I pulled him closer to me, and he bumped the palm of my hand with his head, then he turned his one golden eye towards me, and I could hear the distinct sound of purring.  Even in the greatest pain, that ugly battled-scarred cat was asking only for a little affection, perhaps some compassion.

At that moment I thought Ugly was the most beautiful, loving creature I had ever seen.  Never once did he try to bite or scratch me, or even try to get away from me, or struggle in any way.  Ugly just looked up at me completely trusting in me to relieve his pain.

Ugly died in my arms before I could get inside, but I sat and held him for a long time afterwards, thinking about how one scarred, deformed little stray could so alter my opinion about what it means to have true pureness of spirit, to love so totally and truly.  Ugly taught me more about giving and compassion than a thousand books, lectures, or talk show specials ever could, and for that I will always be thankful.

He had been scarred on the outside, but I was scarred on the inside, and it was time for me to move on and learn to love truly and deeply.  To give my total to those I cared for.

Many people want to be richer, more successful, well liked, beautiful, but for me, I will always try to be Ugly.
Wednesday, September 28, 2011

'Si Jelek'

Semua orang di komplek rumahku tau siapa itu "si Jelek", "si jelek" adalah kucing liar yang berkeliaran di sekitar komplek, "Si Jelek" menyukai tiga hal : berkelahi, memakan makanan sampah dan sesuatu yg biasa kita sebut dengan "CINTA"

"Si Jelek" hanya mempunyai satu mata, kupingnya selalu terluka setiap saat ku lihat, terlihat kaki kirinya sudah terluka parah dan "Si jelek" berjalan dengan tidak seimbang, selalu saja setiap jalan "Si Jelek" hanya mencari sudut jalan untuk beristirahat dan untuk membantu dia berjalan dengan baik. Ekornya telah lama hilang dan menyisakat sedikit bagian dengan banyak luka, dan itu membuatnya terlihat sangat jelek dan kotor.

"Si Jelek" sebenarnya memiliki warna abu-abu gelap belang belang, kecuali bagian luka yg menutupi bagian kepala, leher dan bahkan bahunya yg tertutup nanah berwarna kuning. Setiap kali orang melihat "Si Jelek" semua mempunyai reaksi yang sama "ihhhhh itu Kucing Jelek".

Semua anak kecil dilarang untuk menyentuhnya karena orang dewasa melarang mereka dan menjauhi kucing itu dengan kaki orang dewasa itu. Jika "Si jelek" ingin datang ke rumah mereka mengusir, meludahi dan melukai lagi "Si Jelek"atau "Si Jelek" hanya diam di depan pintu rumah itu diam dan melihat pintu.

"Si Jelek" selalu mempunyai reaksi yang sama, jika kamu berniat menyiraminya dia akan tetap diam disitu samapi kamu menyerah dan berhenti melakukannya. Jika kamu melempari sesuatu ke "Si Jelek", dia hanya merunduk dan merasa bersalah. Suatu saat si Jelek melihat anak-anak bermain, "Si jelek" hanya mengeong dan berlari ke arah anak-anak dan menggesekan kepalanya ke tangan si anak-anak dan berharap elusan dan "kasih sayang" dari anak-anak. Jika kamu pernah memeluknya dia akan menyusu pada kancingmu menganggap bahwa kamu ibu-nya

Suatu hari "Si Jelek" mengelus dan manja ke tetangga, mereka tidak membalasnya dengan baik, dan si jelek selalu mendapat perlakuan buruk. Terdengar dekat rumah, saya mendengar suara "Si Jelek" berteriak dan saya berlari kearahnya dan berusaha mengobatinya, sejak saat itu saya hanya melihat "Si Jelek" terdiam dan tertidur di tempat itu. Suatu waktu saya melihat "Si Jelek" masih tertidur dan kepalanya bergerak melihat ke arah ku, saya mendekatainya dan saat itulah "Si Jelek" akan mendekati ajalnya.

"Si Jelek" saya bungkus dengan plastik dan terlihat tangan dan kakinya keluar dari plastik tanpa tenaga, saya ambil dan saya bawa "Si Jelek" ke rumah saya, saya dapat mendengar suaranya yang kehabisan suara dan seperti sedang membisik dan merengek kecil, mungkin saya mengangkatnya itu membuatnya kesakitan.

Saya dapat mendengar "Si Jelek" kesakitan, menderita dan suara sekaratnya terdengar jelas olehku. Saya angkat "Si Jelek" mendekati ku dia mengeluskan kepalanya ke arah tanganku dan dia melihat ku dengan pandangan emas seperti dia merasa kalo aku hanyalah orang yg berada disisinya pada saat dia mati. Walaupun dalam kedaan sakit si jelek yang mempunyai luka pada tubuhnya itu hanya berharap elusan dan kasihsayang yg kecil dan berharap ada yang memperhatikannya.

Pada saat itu saya mengetahui sesuatu bahwa "Si Jelek" adalah binatang paling Cantik dan baik yang pernah saya lihat. Belum pernah dia mencoba menggigit atau mencakar ataupun mencoba menjauhiku atau berontak kepadaku. "Si Jelek" hanya melihatku mempercayaiku untuk menghilangkan rasa sakitnya itu.

"Si Jelek" mati di tanganku sebelum dia bisa masuk ke rumahku, saya memegang eratnya untuk beberapa waktu dan membayangkan seperti apa kehidupan "Si Jelek" selama ini yang berharap kasih sayang dan elusan dari setiap makhluk, pada saat itu "Si Jelek" memberiku pelajaran melebihi ratusan buku dan segala apapun, dan saya akan selalu berterima kasih kepadanya.

Dia memiliki luka di luar, tapi saya memeiliki luka di dalam dan itu adalah waktu bagi saya untuk menatap maju kedepan dan belajar mencintai, menghargai dan memberikan kasih sayang kepada orang-orang.

Banyak orang yang berusaha untuk menjadi kaya, sukses, disukai ataupun keren. Tapi bagi saya, Saya hanya ingin menjadi seperti "SI JELEK".
Tuesday, September 27, 2011

The Chronicles of Batak Christian Protestant Church

HKBP Logos

The Batak Protestant Christian Church is the fruit of the work of the Rhineland Mission (Germany) which began to work in the Batak land of North Sumatra in 1861. The Batak people had strongly rejected earlier attempts to evangelize them. The history of the mission and the church cannot be separated from the person of I.L. Nommensen, "the apostle to the Batak people", who arrived in 1864 and stayed until his death in 1918 as ephorus of the church. One of his great insights was the use of indigenous workers. The first school for Batak evangelists was established in 1868. Already in 1881 a church order was introduced, which enabled the church to grow strong in organization and size. The HKBP became autonomous in 1930. From 1940 onwards it was entirely self-governing, self-sup-porting and self-propagating. Today it is the largest Protestant church in Indonesia, with congregations in many parts of the archipelago and also in other countries. 

The HKBP understands itself as a church of Christ, established by the work of the Holy Spirit, an organism that "lives from age to age and from generation to generation across the borders of continents, nations, races and languages". It is part of the universal church, holding to one baptism. It has its own confession, adopted in 1951, which is based on the holy scriptures, on the Apostles', Nicene and Athanasian creeds, the Reformation and more recent confessions like the Barmen Theological Declaration of 1934. According to the latest revision of its constitution, the HKBP has a vision of developing itself to be an inclusive, dialogical and transparent church that, together with other Christians and people of other faiths, strives for the improvement of the quality of life of the people in the light of the love of Jesus Christ, for the glory of God. The mission of the church is carried out through its three departments: Diakonia, Marturia and Koinonia. The main concerns are bringing the gospel to non-Christian people (e.g. among Javanese and Tamil in Medan, tribes in Riau, in areas of transmigration), providing social services (e.g. care for orphans, for the blind, for drop-outs), gender justice, schools (nursery, elementary, high schools and technical, 145 in all), hospitals and health centres, HIV/AIDS, environment, violence and poverty. 

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Memories of the past

Sometimes when you get knocked down you have to learn to pick yourself up,
dust yourself off and just know that things will get better

I woke up in the middle of a dream. my eyelashes were wet the words I remembered are "I beg u, please don't go" This growing feeling for u is never changes my respect and adoration are always unshakable

The red sky at sunset today was tender like u, i shouted that it wasn't a dream this time "Please don't go" The memories don't disappear but neither increase the words I'm allowed to say are "I beg you, please stay with me"


Maybe, I can no longer hold on just by pretending to be strong my love can't be removed just by being held down the moonlight tonight is the guide you gave to me your back is too far and I can no more see it "Please stay with me!!!"

A memory of the past
Lets by gone be by gone, make it all a valuable lesson from a valuable experience.


thanx Rob for these meaningful songs...
Thursday, September 15, 2011

All about "love"


* Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, tidak bisa memberikan alasan mengapa ia mencintaimu. Dia hanya tau, di mata dia, kamulah satu satunya.

* Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, sebenarnya selalu membuatmu marah / gila. Tapi ia tidak pernah tau hal bodoh apa yang sudah ia lakukan, karna semua yang ia lakukan adalah untuk kebaikanmu.

* Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, jarang memujimu. Tetapi di dalam hatinya kamu adalah yang terbaik.

* Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, akan mencaci maki atau mengeluh jika kamu tidak membalas pesannya, karna ia peduli.

* Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, hanya menjatuhkan air matanya di hadapanmu. Ketika kamu mencoba untuk menghapus air matanya, kamu telah menyentuh hatinya, dimana hatinya selalu berdegup / berdenyut / bergetar untuk kamu.

* Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, tidak akan memberikan janji apapun dengan mudah, karna ia tidak mau mengingkari janjinya. Ia ingin kamu untuk mempercayainya dan ia ingin memberikan hidup yang paling bahagia dan aman selama lamanya.

* Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, selalu memberitahumu untuk tidak berpikir terlalu banyak, karna ia sudah merencanakan semuanya untukmu. Ia ingin memberikan kehidupan yang terbaik di masa mendatang. Ia ingin memberikanmu suatu kejutan, percayalah dia dapat melakukannya.

* Seseorang yang mencintai kamu, tidak mau berkata Aku mencintaimu dengan mudah, karna segalanya yang ia lakukan untuk kamu adalah untuk menunjukkan bahwa ia siap mencintaimu. Tetapi hanya ia yang akan mengatakan kata I Love You pada situasi yang spesial, karna ia tidak mau kamu salah mengerti, dia mau kamu mengetahui bahwa ia mencintai dirimu.

* Seseorang yang benar - benar mencintai kamu, akan merasa bahwa sesuatu harus dikatakan sekali saja krn ia berpikir bahwa kamu telah mengerti dirinya. Jika berkata terlalu banyak, ia akan merasa bahwa tidak ada yang akan membuatnya bahagia / tersenyum. ....
Wednesday, September 14, 2011

a Lonely looner


cinta.....
apakah arti cinta bagimu....??
ada yg bilang cinta adalah spirit dalam menjalani kehidupan, karena di dalam cinta kita bisa menemukan apa makna kehidupan dan bahagia dalam menjalani hidup.
tiap manusia pasti memiliki cinta..
apakah itu benar adanya...??

aku tidak pernah mengerti apa itu cinta, dan untuk apa cinta itu...
yang aku tahu hanyalah kosong, hampa, dan kesunyian....

apakah hatiku berwarna hitam..??
apakah hatiku beku seperti es yang membeku abadi..??

aku tertawa, tersenyum, dan bercanda gurau. itu hanyalah sebuah topeng. topeng yang selalu aku pakai setiap hari bila bertemu dengan orang lain. sebab sebenarnya di dalam diriku, hanya ada kesunyian yang gelap gulita tanpa ada setitik pun cahaya yang menerangi...

meskipun disekelilingku ada keluarga, teman, dan sahabat. tapi aku merasa seperti berjalan sendirian di sebuah lorong sempit yang gelap. dan disana hanya ada aku dan bayanganku.
kemanapun bayanganku melangkah, kesanalah aku berjalan dengan semua kesunyian yang ada dalam hatiku....

lalu untuk apa aku dilahirkan di dunia ini, bila tidak ada cinta di dalam hatiku.....
bila aku hanya akan menyakiti hati orang lain...
sebab aku tidak pernah bisa memberikan cinta yang suci kepadanya...

apakah Allah itu adil....??
bila Allah adil, mengapa ada peperangan, kesengsaraan, dan penderitaan di dunia ini.
dan mengapa ada kesunyian dalam hatiku....

aku tidak akan menyalahkan Allah. karena Dia-lah yang menciptakan aku dengan semua kelebihan, dan semua kekurangan yang aku miliki, dan aku bersyukur untuk itu....

apakah aku berdosa,, ataukah aku iblis, karena tidak bisa merasakan dan memberikan cinta...???

every seconds, every minutes, every hours, every days, every months, and every years...i'm always feel so lonely...

because i'm just a lonely guy....
the lonely yoshikanji.....

F1 2011 The Game - Razor1911

Release name: F1_2011-Razor1911 
Size
 : 7.42GB
Publisher:
 Codemasters 
Developer: 
Codemasters Studios Birmingham
Release Date: 20-09-2011
Genre:
 Racing 
Language:
 ENG

Description: F1 2011™ is the sequel to the BAFTA winning FORMULA ONE™ videogame from Codemasters®, the developer and publisher of award-winning racing games. Developed under Codemasters’ exclusive worldwide agreement with Formula One World Championship Limited, F1 2011 will come complete with all the official drivers, teams and circuits featuring in the 2011 FIA FORMULA ONE WORLD CHAMPIONSHIP™.  With a new focus on multiplayer gaming, including co-op Championships and split-screen mode, F1 2011 will invite players to ‘Be The Driver, Live the Life, Go Compete’ with a range of innovations, improvements and enhancements on and off the track. Set to be the most enthralling season yet, the 2011 FIA FORMULA ONE WORLD CHAMPIONSHIP features two new circuits in India and Germany, new drivers, rules, tyres as Sebastian Vettel seeks to defend his title.


All the Cars, All the Stars

Fully licensed, F1 2011 features all the drivers set to contest the 2011 FIA Formula One World Championship, including Sebastian Vettel, Lewis Hamilton, Fernando Alonso, Michael Schumacher and Jenson Button. All 2011 teams are represented including Ferrari, Red Rull Racing, Vodafone McLaren Mercedes and Lotus Renault GP in their iconic black and gold livery.

KERS, DRS and More

F1 2011 includes all the new rule changes set to make this year’s season the most exciting yet. F1 2011debuts DRS (Drag Reduction System) – the new system which enables drivers to adjust the rear wing on the car to give a boost of up to 10km. KERS also returns, giving players an extra 80BHP for up to 6.67 seconds, enabling drivers to blast past rivals. Combined, these systems encourage close wheel-to-wheel racing with new options for both defense and attack. This season’s new Pirelli tires are faithfully simulated in the game, and if players push their car too hard they may experience a range of authentic new damage failures.


Day and Night Racing

The 2011 Formula 1 Ethiad Airways Abu Dhabi Grand Prix comes alive with a full day/night transition which recreates the special atmosphere at this unique track. Every one of the existing circuits from the 2010 roster has been given a complete visual overhaul. New atmospheric effects, including dynamic clouds, compliment a weather system which features an advanced rain model that affects on-track grip. Powered by the EGO Game Technology Platforms, F1 2011 pushes forward the graphical standard of what can be achieved in a racing game.

Features :

  • Go Compete F1 2011 builds extensively on the multiplayer options from F1 2010. Split-screen racing is included for the first time in a high-definition FORMULA ONE title.
  • New Circuits for 2011. Two stunning new additions to the race calendar extend the number of circuits to feature in F1 2011 to 19.
  • Be the driver, live the life. From the paddock to the track, F1 2011 takes players closer to the experience of being a FORMULA ONE driver than ever before.
  • All the cars, all the stars. Fully licensed, F1 2011 features all the drivers set to contest the 2011 FIA FORMULA ONE WORLD CHAMPIONSHIP, including Sebastian Vettel, Lewis Hamilton, Fernando Alonso, Michael Schumacher and Jenson Button.
  • Full Day / Night Racing. The 2011 FORMULA 1 ETHIAD AIRWAYS ABU DHABI GRAND PRIX comes alive with a full day/ night transition which recreates the special atmosphere at this unique track.


Thursday, September 01, 2011

Pro Evolution Soccer 2012 for PC

Release name: Pro.Evolution.Soccer.2012.PC.Multi5-iND
Original Size : 6.39 GB
Download Size : 1.5 GB
Publisher: Konami
Developer:  Winning Eleven Productions
Release Date: 26-09-2011
Genre: Sports
Language: Multi5 (EN/FR/DE/ES/BR)
Pro Evolution Soccer 2012 (abbreviated to PES 2012 and known officially as World Soccer: Winning Eleven 2012 in Asia) is the eleventh edition in the Pro Evolution Soccer series developed and published by Konami with production assistance from the Blue Sky Team. Lionel Messi, who has been the cover star for the series since PES 2009, will be replaced by Cristiano Ronaldo.

The biggest flaws in last year’s game, such as defenders being unrealistically faster than attackers and teammate/goalkeeper AI are fixed for the most part, but goalkeepers still have the odd moment of braincramps and butterfingers. They don’t happen anywhere near enough to hamper the experience, but the flaws are there

 The biggest flaws in last year’s game, such as defenders being unrealistically faster than attackers and teammate/goalkeeper AI are fixed for the most part, but goalkeepers still have the odd moment of braincramps and butterfingers. They don’t happen anywhere near enough to hamper the experience, but the flaws are there.



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